Are we measuring the right things? Last night I attended a d.talks event on suburbs and tomorrow. One of the presenters posited that we shouldn’t measure units per acre to calculate density. ” We should be calculating based on people per acre and then we would see that lower income areas have truly higher ratios. Another panelist suggested that we consider density, as Teddy Cruz challenges, as a function of human interactions.  Isn’t the metric, number ?/area attempting to measure community? The proxy is easy to calculate by official because it is just arithmetic.

Understanding that community flourishes in the conversations and informal understanding of our neighbours, we should begin an exercise in sociological urbanism and tactical urbanism. In East Village in Calgary, the Calgary Municipal Land Corporation is counting mothers with strollers as a proxy for perceived safety. This makes contextual sense because EV has a history and the redevelopment has been bumpy. As moms come from across the region to walk the pathways and take in St Patrick’s Island they change the brand, the culture and the ecology. If we are already observing (really just counting) mothers couldn’t we create a behaviour crib sheet where observers select from a list , talking, walking, sitting, alone, in group (2,3,4), jogging, playing, reading..? The list would measure interaction with the built environment and interaction with others. The value to planners and developers is in the unexpected interactions and the aha’s of place use.


The data could present new opportunities and save significant time and expense trying to stubbornly create conformity.

Maybe CMLC is already doing this but as in all things there are lessons that can transfer to other area of our life. What am I measuring and what relevance does it have to my mission? Is scale needed? Is the interplay between people more important? Can we solve a problem together? How do we move this forward?

As always, more questions than answers.


Make Today Remarkable, by observing how you and others interact in a public space,




I seem to be a curious sort. I ask lots of questions across a wide range of interests. I read dozens of books simultaneously and finish those that I satisfy my wonder.

Curiosity may have killed the cat (unlikely) but for me (and maybe you) it is the breath of life. Seeking light when there is fog, looking for treasure when the road isn’t clear, being challenged with new ideas keeps us breathing. When we believe that there is nothing new to learn, we begin to wither and life begins to drain away.

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Sitting in front of a predictable TV program or wallowing in some pseudo reality nonsense drains your reserves rather than fills them. Curiosity is the challenge that our desire for learning presents.

Go to your local library and type an interest area into the catalogue search. Pick up 5 or 6 of the titles and flip through them waiting to have your interest piqued. Take a couple home today and read them over the next week. Search out a video or documentary on the subject. If it is part of your learning style, take notes. Check out reference materials and other work by the same author. Take a sidestep and converge on one idea for a couple days and then see how far you can diverge again.

One of the titles I am reading ” The Brain That Changes itself” by Norman Doge M.D. offers some amazing stories of what can happen when we exercise our grey matter and retrain our brain.

Make Today remarkable by getting curious,




Not Every Day is Easy

Some days are hard. Maybe they are supposed to be hard. I don’t know if the circle of life requires a certain level of effort and frustration on some days so that the days when everything sails along are appreciated.

Yesterday was a struggle and rewards arrived in my inbox this morning. I overcame some large and small barriers, had a couple difficult discussions and felt achy from a difficult run. I slogged forward with the day believing that there were important reasons for the barriers. In a couple of cases I discovered that the barrier caused me to shift direction and the new path was better suited for the goals. The difficult conversations were crucial and cordial and I anticipate that there will be an as yet unimagined possibility that will arise (soon I hope). I don’t know why I ache from running intervals but I am checking it up to the old and flawed adage ” no pain, no gain”.

Make Today Remarkable by slogging through and making the best,




Today, I was the speaker at our church and this is a draft of the message I gave.

You Tube Video Jericho




Like the Babylonians, the people of Jericho were shocked when the bricks that they laid didn’t provide the strong foundation they anticipated. In the Joshua v Jericho story  most of us take the view that we are more closely associated with the Tribe of Israel but I realize that on many occasions, I am more like the Jerichoites. I am building my own reality placing bricks of belief beside and on top of other bricks. If the new bricks confirm what I already understand to be true, they are added, even if the mortar sticking them together isn’t quite right.


I expect that many of you have built a solid foundation through years of service, worship, sermons and indoctrination. We all add blocks that hang loosely with our confirmation bias and then if necessary we seek evidence that supports what we want supported.

Often in times of struggle or tragedy we are made aware just how fragile our walls are. The trumpet blare of an illness, a loss, a financial challenge can reduce the wall to a pile of rubble.

Over the years I have willfully chosen to deconstruct my wall and examine why each belief brick is important, is it still valid, or is it just there because it was the right shape for the wall I wanted to build. Twice when I went through the painful process of questioning and doubting my presumptions, I realized that I had created God in my image and the wall was so high with my addendums and philosophies that I could see God anymore. Each time I found my way back.

This time, I was invited by Peter Rollins, an Irish theologian and philosopher , to participate in Atheism for Lent. If I thought letting go of bricks was hard in the past. This was excruciating. I learned a lot about myself, my faith, my constructed representations, church politics and a remarkable amount about ethos – meaning “character” that is used to describe the guiding beliefs or ideals that characterize a community, nation, or ideology. I will  come back to that journey but first the Jerichoites. They had built a pretty amazing wall to protect them from foreign invaders; different ideas and customs, different ideas about marriage, child rearing, money, work, elders, children … and the wall served them very well. It kept unwelcome/unclean people and their unwelcome/unclean ideas out. Everybody thought much the same and they shared the same expectations of each other and a distrust for outsiders. They were pretty sure that their way was the right way. Turns out they were in for a shock. I wonder how you would do if you faced that kind of new found ambiguity?

Some social psychologists would have loved a sample as large as the city of Jericho but two 21st C psychologists Roets and Van Hiel developed a 15 question test measure our individual comfort and discomfort with uncertainity .

I am going to ask you the questions and ask you to quickly score yourself on a scale of 1-6 with 1 being completely disagree and 6 being completely agree.  If you can keep a running total by adding each question’s response, we can get a sense of how much you and the person beside you need closure. I will also let you know what I scored when I was getting close to the end of Lent. Again give yourself a 1 if you completely disagree and a 6 if you completely agree and if somewhere less than completely 2345 – Ready


Short version of the revised Need for closure scale: bold items


1 3. I don’t like situations that are uncertain.
2 4. I dislike questions which could be answered in many different ways.
3 6. I find that a well ordered life with regular hours suits my temperament.
4 7. When dining out, I like to go to places where I have been before so that I know what to expect.
5 8. I feel uncomfortable when I don’t understand the reason why an event occurred in my life.
6 9. I feel irritated when one person disagrees with what everyone else in a group believes.
7 10. I hate to change my plans at the last minute.
8 11. I don’t like to go into a situation without knowing what I can expect from it.
9 12. When I have made a decision, I feel relieved
10 13. When I am confronted with a problem, I’m dying to reach a solution very quickly.
11 14. When I am confused about an important issue, I feel very upset.
12 15. I would quickly become impatient and irritated if I would not find a solution to a problem immediately.
13 16. I would rather make a decision quickly than sleep over it.
14 17. Even if I get a lot of time to make a decision, I still feel compelled to decide quickly.
15 22. I almost always feel hurried to reach a decision, even when there is no reason to do so.


So how did you do? Anyone score more than 57? More than? Less than 45? Less than 30? Less than 20?

I scored 23 when I was nearing the deconstruction of my wall but it seems that the more we practice swimming in ambiguity, the more comfortable we become.

The Atheism for Lent project began with me standing on some pretty solid ground – likely a bit different than yours because I have a different set of experiences from faith and life.  I began with a seed of doubt and rather than denying that I wasn’t sure and didn’t  have all the answers, I slowly became open to the doubts. As I read the selected authors my ethos incrementally changed. I decided I could either approach this exercise half heartedly or with conviction and commitment. One of my favorite quotes is from Johan Wolfgang Von Goethe “

“Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back– Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth that ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.”

With that in mind, I threw myself into the project. It was helpful that we were in California and I was able to run every morning. I find the physical effort refreshing and exhausting and somewhere after 5k I begin to shed some of the blocks and concerns in my head and heart. Running a couple of  days a week in the sand was a great exfoliant and my feet were cleansed of all the dead and useless stuff as my mind and heart was being wiped clean.

The first week we began by reading Epicuris from 3rd C BCE . Reading

Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then He is not omnipotent. Is He able, but not willing? Then He is malevolent. Is He both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is He neither able nor willing? Then why call Him God? “ to begin wondering about the brick labeled “God”. Again I am not saying that I was an atheist or agnostic at this point but I was letting go of God in my image.  If God isn’t able or willing what is it about my understanding that is flawed. Was the all powerful/all knowing doctrine important or could I pull it from the wall?

Day 2 week one was David Hume. In his Dialogues concerning Natural religion, he is less direct but more forthright (because he was writing from the voices of fictional characters).

Demea represents religious dogmatism and insists that we cannot come to know the nature of God through reason. Philo, the philosophical skeptic, agrees with Demea that God is incomprehensible but insists that he might be morally corrupt.

Reading Anthony Fluw, Bertrand Russell and Christopher Hitchens the remainder of week one convinced me that the big brick of all knowing/all powerful was unstable and I pitched it aside.

It was like a kick in the gut. If I no longer am sure about Omnipotence, Omniscience, and Omnipresence (all powerful, all knowing, all present) then dozens of other bricks didn’t have any mortar to connect to the structure.

If. God’s power isn’t infinite, or limitless then does God have power over wind, water, gravity, physics, me, us?

I almost retreated to certainty on this one but was convinced by a whisper that if I was going to remove the wall between me and God, I needed to wipe the slate clean and then wait on him. So I plowed ahead. Releasing the idea that God is all knowing challenged the principles of free will and predestined future. If He was always present all the time tore out the smaller bricks of immanence and disconnected transcendence.

The bricks were already falling on their own. Every morning I would run and toss more into the Pacific Ocean. As my feet were scrubbed so was my  faith.

Week two started with Feuerbach and move to Marx and Hegel.  I am not going to give you the blow by blow of the struggle I went through each week and the mental gymnastics I tried to hold onto some of what I “knew to be true”  because we would be here for a couple days  and I am not trying to convince you or unconvinced you of anything. I am not urging you to step into the den and slay some of your tigers, lambs and sacred cows. I hope that by relating the experience and sharing where I am today that you might see God the way he wants you to see Him. While I have talked with many of you about this journey and most of you about other faith topics, I don’t know you well enough to suggest anything about your faith and relationship with God but if you are like me, the God I was seeing was a caricature of God, God as I want him to be, God as my current interpretation revealed, God as a factor of my current state and mood, and God of my circumstances.  Just like the caricature artists at the stampede , some features were exaggerated beyond plausibility and made a mocking cartoon of Him.

Back to Feurbach for a moment.  For me, there was a refocusing in some of his writings. “It is theology, that has wrenched man out of his relationship with the world, isolated him, made him into an arrogant self-centered being who exalts himself above nature. And it is only on this level that religion becomes identified with theology, with the belief in a being outside and above nature as the true God. Originally religion expressed nothing other than man’s feeling that he is an inseparable part of nature or the world.” This allowed me to detach the workings of Church from the realities of God. I was and had been using Church as a cloud to keep my distance from the mystery and mysticism and majesty. Just like Moses, I shielded myself from seeing Him. If I created rules and laws that defined and contained God I could keep him locked in my head and out of my heart.

The process of Atheism for Lent went on for more than 6 weeks and I naively assumed/ presumed that on the Sunday of resurrection that God would manifest himself to me and say something profound, something just for me. I suppose I thought that there might be a Damascus Road experience where God would knock me off my donkey and send me on some grand mission. The burning bush didn’t happen, there was no amazing revelation, no I AM conversation. I have been hearing faint whispers – I had a physical this week and told my doctor that Jan thinks I am suffering from some hearing loss. He asked “ if I had any pain, any leaking fluid, any buzzing or ringing” I said “no” but it occurred to me that I should have told him that I have been hearing whispers when there is no one around. They aren’t quite startling but they are always a surprise. That is probably because I haven’t heard them before. If the whispers are from God, it has been a very long time, maybe never since I heard Him. The whispers aren’t full sentences, maybe not even words just a sense that there is something I am supposed to be paying attention to – right now. Like “ look here” , “ did you see that?” I interpret through my lens ( again with my view rather than His) anyway I interpret that God wants me to notice how He is active in the world and learn from what I observe. My impatience gets in the way. My seriously strong action bias gets in the way. But my stubbornness and commitment to see this journey through (after all if I stop now, all the confusion, anxiety, and pain will have been for not). I don’t know how you encounter God. I think I have created a metaphor for what I needed God to be by reading scripture, commentaries and the latest books. I expanded my version with retreats, music, and slogans always chasing the next icon that would fill a hole in me, in my heart I think the expression is. The hole would be filled temporarily by the acquisition of some more stuff, different ideas, another sermon but like all decisions that only lead to consuming more it returned very quickly. The new God smell faded after just a few uses.

I don’t know how you found God, how you understand God but for me my ways over my lifetime didn’t work. I believe very little right now – much of the theology and doctrine has been tossed aside. I am not sure of all the things I was once sure of. But I was asked this week “what’s left?”

For me there is a faith – belief that is not based in proof and doesn’t need to be proven that there is a God and He is the creator and if I am patient and open ( without preconceived, prescribed beliefs) that He will find me. He has been looking for an opening to whisper something to me and I just need to bear the ambiguity until he shows me a tiny piece of Himself, a tiny piece that I am ready to understand and ready to embrace.

I am thankful to Ed for inviting me to share a bit of this story and for His trust that I wouldn’t blow anything up. I am thankful to you for your attention and your consideration. If I was attending a different kind of church I imagine that I wouldn’t feel that it is okay to have the doubts I am carrying and most churches wouldn’t want them expressed – certainly not from the stage.

Somerset Maughn said “Tradition is supposed to be a guide not a prison” so I close with a traditional blessing that isn’t meant to bind you but release you.

Numbers 6:24-26New King James Version (NKJV)


“The Lord bless you and keep you;


The Lord make His face shine upon you,

And be gracious to you;


The Lord lift up His countenance upon you,

And give you peace.”’




When was the last time that you allowed yourself to act goofy? I am not a scientist but my instincts and experience tell me that there are a different set of endorphins that are released when you play the clown. The giggle response that grows into a belly laugh is loaded with a body refreshing, breath enhancing, heart beating rush of energy. If you allow some ridiculous in front of people you care about, it can have a. similar effect on them and their health. The expression ” this isn’t a laughing matter” is only accurate in a tiny set of circumstances. There are very few things that are really not better with laughter.

Saturday is a great day to start stretching your foolishness muscles. Take a chance today to make your day bettering improve the mood and disposition of someone you love. Say something funnily out of character, dance a silly dance, wear something fun …

Saturday May 7 is officially Intentional Goofy Day – join the party.



Resist and Disrupt

I read that the three biggest addictions facing western culture are heroin, carbohydrates and a weekly paycheque. I would add or maybe supplant one or more of those with our addiction to convenience. ” It would be easier …”  “. I don’t have time to …” ” It is boring !” “I don’t want to …” are mantras of the convenience culture. It makes most  things disposable, even  relationships  and commitments. We have surrendered important values like loyalty and commitment in our search for simple and mundane personal gratification.

“If I don’t want to, I don’t need to” is troublesome to Society and ultimately destructive to personal development and possibly survival.

Today’s assignment, if you choose to accept it, is to resist convenience at every step.  Don’t drive (find a less convenient form of transportation), don’t eat out (make your own lunch) – carry disposable bags and coffee mugs. Make time to read, for a friend, for a stranger. Stop rushing to simplest and default to meaningful, for your own good and for the good of your tribe.

Watch for the ‘too much convenience’ traps that are laid out for you today. Do 3 things that are inconvenient today and then find three new inconvenient things tomorrow.



Personal Best

The idea of a personal best is motivating (or it can be). We should be striving for improvement every day but seeing a project done to a higher standard, an art piece reflecting your growing skill, a conversation that is the most important this relationship has ever had are markers that recognize the improvement.

Sometimes improvement is subjective as we measure our perceptions of the actions and impacts. Yesterday, I ran a personal best 5k. I didn’t set out to chase down a record but found myself on a pretty quick pace and feeling strong I changed my plan from a moderate 10K to seeing if I could hold pace. I don’t know what today’s run will bring but the new PB left me within striking distance of a goal I set two years ago so I know when my  training plateaus and I go for the next push I will reach the milestone and then set another goal.

For all the things I get to do each day, those which have a goal seem to be closer to a best than those that I approach with laissez faire. Maybe I should  be doing more of those things that are important enough for me to create a goal.

Make Today remarkable, by setting a goal and chasing a PB,



This Could be My Last Race

From yesterday’s “Smart Running Workshop” – strengthening over stretching, rolling might provide relief but does very little else, runs greater that 3 hours cause damage that accumulates and have fun because this could be your last race/run.

Both speakers yesterday talked about enjoying the running experience and embracing the discomfort. They were clear that if something causes you to limp or change your gait while churning your 120-150 strides, that is a sign you should stop. If it just hurts, keep going. Along with leaving your today’s best on the course we should be celebrating the opportunity we have – that we have the time and inclination, the fitness and health to be out churning shorter strides and maximizing today’s run.

There was lots of psychology and physiology in the 5 hours but my big takeaway was go for it on race day, have fun when racing and running, and listen to your body. That likely applies to all activity, whether physical or intellectual – maybe even relational.

I am better for having taken up the learning opportunity and as I hit the trail this morning I have some new things to practice.

Make Today Remarkable, by learning and practicing,








I try to learn something new every day. In my areas of interest; religion, urbanization, community development, coaching, running, and sociology I receive blasts, books and blogs from the best and the brightest on a regular basis. I attend workshops and panels to hear from people who are working in the field and I assimilate their experience and expertise with the knowledge and opinions I already hold.

But I learn most by entering into engaged, important conversations with the people I encounter. Family, friends, strangers offer me a wide array of ideas and challenges to chew on. I learn more in the rumination than from another audiobook, tome, or lecture. I realize that my preferred learning style has shifted from asynchronous pull to multi synchronous exchange. I get more from the material when I get to touch it, talk about it and toss it around in my head.



I am attending a running workshop this morning in Calgary that is billed as a panel but the reputation of the facilitator suggests that we are going to be engaged physically and intellectually at each step. I am going to be looking for the best and the brightest to help me understand how to improve my stride and reduce injuries but I am going to be observing how I interact with the message, the medium and the masters.

Make Today Remarkable by Learning Something New,